Okay. I'm a pretty busy woman these days. I work 60+ hours a week, I go to school, I do my clinicals and preceptorships, I work out, I sleep and many other things daily, yet I STILL seem to make some time for my friends. And someone that I really like.

So here's what I gotta say:

 To all the men...if you like a girl alot. If you are really interested in them...why don't you CALL? I am busy too, just like you! But ya know what? I don't have time to play games. If you can't take ONE minute out of a 24hour day to call me and say hi, you're thinking about me, you miss me, can't wait to see me, then why tell me how much you like me? Why try? I'm not askin for much, not askin for you to call me 5 times a day. Or even twice. But when YOU show alot of interest in me yet can't find time to call me during your busy week, or call me back, then don't even start anything with me. It's wearin me out!

Now, I can understand if you have someone else you are more interested in, but if you do, then let me know so I can move on from you, to someone who only wants to be with me.

So, if you're a guy, or know a guy, who likes to keep in touch with a cute girl who peaks your interest, and you like to hang out with them and prioritize, then send me a note because it is so completely frustrating to really hit things off with someone and only get half the effort from him! I have no problem whatsoever being a single girl. It DOES make it easier to not have to worry about making sure I'm not hurting anyone's feelings. But if I were too busy for a man in my life then I'd say so by now. I know what I can handle.

To all you men: If you are just honestly too busy, if you got way too much on your plate, then don't even try finding a girl to be with! Wait till your plate clears a little. She wants to hear from you and if you can't offer that, then just tell her. If you can handle having a gf AND a busy schedule, then try hard to make it work. But you gotta put the effort in too!

To all you ladies: If they aren't giving as much as you are as far as time and importance, then why should you? Don't settle for less. Don't allow them to run all over you. Don't sit at home waiting for him to call while he is going on with his busy life. Find someone who WILL make time for you, and that's exactly what I'm trying to do.

We always seem to think that at this moment in time, we really know who we are. I said that about myself last year. That I knew who I was. I thought I knew. But I didn't. I didn't allow myself to define what and who I really was. I didn't know, because I wasn't happy with being just me. I wasn't capable of making sound decisions all by my big girl self. I was always searching for answers in everyone else around me. I finally realized that in order for me to learn anything in life, I was gonna have to step up to the grown up plate and take a shot in the dark about what my life really is all about. I have grown so much as an adult. I now love myself and now I can truly love someone else. I have earned and given myself the respect I deserve.

I went through a "wild phase." I think we all go through them, the difference is how deep we let ourselves get in this wildness. I probably went waist deep. I started to feel like at anytime, someone would just shove me all the way under. I was losing my self-respect. Everything I worked so hard to achieve, I was letting it disappear so hauntingly yet so gradually that I began to question my choices in life. I had blossomed into a hard working, dedicated woman who was determined to succeed. Someone who appreciated the small things and overlooked the things that really didn't matter. But the pierces of bad decision-making left holes in my heart.

I thought that by showing other people this new person I had become- a complete 180- that would be enough. But to these people I lost my self-respect. I allowed my temple to be borrowed for their own amusement, because I thought that was the only way of being accepted by someone I was ultimately interested in. But in reality, it was to their pleasure- not mine- that I was used.

These days I am more calm, more at peace with who I should be, not who they think I already am. Because I know who I truly am. I have earned my self-respect back with a little nay-saying to those that have only one intention with me as well as a couple of eye-opening events.

I am an attractive, considerate, independent, stand on her own two feet woman. Why do I need your approval to validate what is right for my life? Why should I have to share everything about me when I haven't even had a decent intellectual talk (or two or five) with you? Why should I make myself a statistic out there for everyone to glare at and criticize?

I would really want you to think more of me because of my decisions and because who I am at this moment in time is really who I should be for the long run. Opinions and all. Just as you would think less of someone for them exposing all there is to know to the world, think more of me because what is shared with select people is sacred and meaningful.

With that said, I'm sorry. I found my self. Sorry. I am keeping my self respect.  

Remember that, folks. ALWAYS two sides to a story...

Yes, things didn't work out. I am partially to blame, but so is the other person. I have flaws, but I never cheated! I never lived a double life! I just had some self-esteem issues to work out. Yes, I should have figured out who I was way before starting a relationship. But I was blind to who I was and who he was. This person was just a liar, a cheater and a manipulator! He lied not only to me, but to everyone that knew me and all of his little girlfriends he had on the side. I have bigger tits than he does balls, that's for sure.

I've 100% moved on. I have no feelings whatsoever for this person, and as far as I'm concerned he can burn in hell. 

I won't settle for another man even close to that. Next time around my eyes will be open to reality and if I see it isn't working out, then it gets the ax. Plain and simple. I'm not gonna put up with one more little boy talking to me with nothing but lies pouring out of his mouth.

I really like being single. I am 22 and young and just busy and also having fun. If someone comes along that is wonderful, then I'm not gonna pass up a sweet opportunity. But I'm not sweatin' being single. I'm hot now that I don't have to be force-fed!!!

Just a tip for everyone reading- Don't hate, don't be resentful, don't blast. Most of all, don't forget that things happen for a reason and what you hear may not always be true! There are ALWAYS two sides to the story, and until you've heard both, don't judge someone based on someone else's opinion.

BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT!!!!!!